Done done done...NOT!

My weigh-in was today and I'm up 2 lbs. I'm not concerned because I know what I did to gain that 2 lbs. I call it self sabotage, not caring about myself and having a bad attitude about weight loss in general. I was almost ready to say F-it but I knew that the person who suffers in the end is me. I'm worth fighting for and being good to.

Yesterday I woke up and I was very sad, to the point of crying at the drop of a hat. I was besides myself with grief, grief for loss and suffering. I couldn't think of anything but doom and gloom, so what did I do? I ate and ate and ate some more. It wasn't nothing big or nasty, I just grazed all day. I turned to the comfort I knew best, the comfort of food that doesn't talk back, that doesn't condemn me, that doesn't want a thing in return. I chose my old friend food. So many years I have called on this friend. The past it would have done the trick but as I stood on my scale for weigh-in this morning it was clear this friend is not a friend at all but a enemy to all that I'm trying to do for me.

So I say good bye old friend I will miss you but I don't need you anymore. I have a new friend and that is me. I will not hurt me anymore by putting in bad foods into my body. I will treasure myself because there is only one me. I will care for my outside as well as my insides because they reflect each other.

My goals for this coming week:

 

• make video blog
• eat whole foods
• dont skip breakfast
• take my vitamins daily
• go to bed before 11 every night

Im going to write in my blog more than 1 x per week, this will keep me accountable even if its to myself. I need to get on track if Im to meet my big goal by 12-31-11
So onto new and I hope exciting week
Peace Love Happiness ~SHAWN